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A “day-annual” of Thankful Living

I’m almost to the intersection of I-70 and 64, busily speaking an address into my phone for an appointment downtown in the city.  I’m driving with my thoughts fixed on the day ahead—trying to get to the city and back before the traffic hits!!  A large white passenger van catches my attention just up ahead.  Written on the back of the van boldly stating in all cap lettering “PRISONER TRANSPORT”  “KEEP BACK 500 FT.” Suddenly my mind races with thoughts of those inside that van.  Are they male or female?  Is this their first time in prison?  Is this their final ride in a vehicle, going to a place from which they may never return?  Can they see me as I pass?  Are they looking at the fall leaves for the last time?  What did they do to end up here?  Do they know Jesus?  What will happen to them tonight—their first night behind bars?  You know how the mind works  . . . on and on the questions and scenarios play out in the mind.  My heart aches. 

So, I begin to pray—asking God that there might be someone in the prison system who would point him or her to His Grace, that He would keep them safe, and that there might be hope in their hopeless circumstance.  Please don’t get me wrong—I’m certain sin, choices, and brokenness have landed them in this situation and under the rule of law, crime always carries a consequence as it should.  But . . . as long as there is breath, there is hope!  Maybe my heart is more sensitive to the forgotten ones these days.  My world knows nothing of theirs, and I am both thankful and ashamed.  

As I ponder Thanksgiving, I can’t help but think of Ella, our youngest daughter.  Last Christmas, we gave her a trampoline, the very item she had desired to receive for years!!  Finally, we caved and purchased the monstrosity!!  Finding a warm day in the middle of winter, we went to work piecing it together.  And, would you know that every day, EVERY DAY since that trampoline has been put together, Ella has used it to complete at least two somersaults!!  Every day—rain, snow, sunshine—it doesn’t matter, she has committed herself to completing two “landed” somersaults!!  She began calling it her “annual” until we corrected her by saying, “babe, annual means yearly.”  Now, she jokingly and affectionately calls it her “day-annual.”   These are the things that make a mother’s heart laugh with joy—to see a child in sweet activity and innocence, and to see her commit herself to a discipline, a “day-annual!”  It makes me think of Thanksgiving and how thankfulness must be a discipline or we may forget. 

And, my mind goes back to the prisoners, those whose lives are broken, living in a broken place, a broken system.  I think of the nameless, faceless people at the grocery store, I think of my own children, my nieces and nephews and how really when it gets right down to it—I don’t want anyone to spend an eternity alone without God, void of the GOODNESS of GOD.  And, I wonder where our hope is in this day and age?  I know the answer, it’s God’s WORD—full of hope for the criminal, full of hope for the broken, and full of hope for me. 

 

I will praise You, O LORD, with my whole heart;

I will tell of all Your marvelous works.

I will be glad and rejoice in You; (not my circumstances)

I will sing praise to Your name O Most High.

When my enemies turn back,

They shall fall and perish at Your presence.

For You have maintained my right and my cause;

You sat on the throne judging in righteousness.

You have rebuked the nations,

You have destroyed the wicked;

You have blotted out their name forever and ever.

 

O enemy, destructions are finished forever!

And you have destroyed cities;

Even their memory has perished.

But the LORD shall endure forever;

He has prepared His throne for judgment.

And He shall administer judgment for the peoples in uprightness.

 

The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed,

A refuge in times of trouble.

And those who know Your name

Will put their trust in You;

For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You.

 

Sing praises to the LORD, who dwells in Zion!

Declare His deeds among the people.

When He avenges blood, He remembers them;

He does not forget the cry of the humble.

Have mercy on me, O LORD!

Consider my trouble from those who hate me,

You who lift me up from the gates of death,

That I may tell of all Your praise.

In the gates of the daughter of Zion.

I will rejoice in Your salvation.

 

The nations have sunk down in the pit which they made;

In the net which they hid, their own foot is caught.

The LORD is known by the judgment He executes;

The wicked is snared in the work of his own hands.

 

The wicked shall be turned into hell,

And all the nations that forget God.

For the needy shall not always be forgotten;

The expectation of the poor shall not perish forever.

 

Arise O LORD,

Do not let man prevail;

Let the nations be judged in Your sight.

Put them in fear, O LORD,

That the nations may know themselves to be but men.  Psalm 9

 

Let’s have a “day-annual” of praise, a discipline of thankfulness, and remember that this life in all its brokenness is not without hope.  Praise God for salvation in Christ, refuge in circumstances, trust that God’s judgments are right, and remember we do not need to fear when we trust Him with this life.  We are not forsaken!  We are not forgotten!  We are remembered! 

He is always Just,

He is always Right,

He is always Present,

He is always Good. 

 A “day-annual” of praise will keep us humbly on our knees for the broken, the poor, the least, the person next to you begrudgingly waiting in the checkout line at Wal-mart.   Have a “day-annual” of constant communication with the ONE who can change the world in which we live.  This is what will change our lives and the lives of those around us. 

Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks;

for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

1Thessalonians 5:16-18

 

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Blog writing, much of the time, feels like an avenue for confession and that can be hard and humbling.  That is this post for me, hard and humbling, but I’m hoping I’m not alone in these thoughts and possibly my journey may help a struggling sister or brother.  I’m writing on the illusiveness of happiness because often I struggle to maintain it!  In the past, on several occasions, Chad has asked, “what makes you happy?”  I want to give the Bible loving answer but I find myself saying “order” . . . “order” makes me happy.  Sigh . . . maybe because much of life is chaotic, out of my control and often doesn’t go as planned.  I will sometimes say in the serious moments of life that if you’re having a bad day, go clean a bathroom!  Back to that order thing again; that’s my go to, my comfort, and my control.   I believe there is something more to happiness than what I’m doing.   I know my JOY comes from the Lord – and that abiding in Him gives me the fullness of JOY despite my circumstances but my humanness longs for more!  Gasp!  I know, I said it – my heart wants more!!   But why would I dare want more?

Why would I dare want more . . . because we are designed for more, but more of what?  I will start here because many times my unhappiness is due to an over fixation on God’s gifts instead of the Giver Himself.    Other times my unhappiness stems from the knowledge that this earth is not my home and I feel done with it!  But let me be frank, more often than not, it’s simply sin.  John Piper, the author of  “When I Don’t Desire God” poignantly states it this way, 

“Preferring anything above Christ is the very essence of sin.  It must be fought.”

I’m in a daily battle over my preferences.  Anyone else?  When my preferences are wrong my happiness is at stake.  So happiness must be fought for in a battle, a battle over sin in the form of desiring order, control, focus and purpose. 

We must ask ourselves what do we prefer more than Christ?

Self? Husband? Wife? Family? Career? Well-behaved Children? Beautiful Home?  Associations? Material Possessions? Comfort? Social Media?  What is it that keeps our attention more than Christ?  Whatever it is . . . it is sin and the very robber of happiness.   So, lets square that one truth away and purpose to desire God over all things.  Psalm 37:4 demands that we “Take delight in the Lord.” It is a command and a promise.  I want to focus on our part - to take God’s command for delighting in Him with seriousness, asking for His guidance and confessing our weaknesses daily when we prefer anything above Him.

I recently picked up a book written by David Dunn entitled “Try Giving Yourself Away” and the title had me intrigued!  I thought, what does that mean “try giving yourself away” – I thought I was giving myself away but I’ve discovered I can do better.   A couple of areas of intention are challenging my self-absorption and they may challenge you as well.

Are you a “noticer”?

David Dunn encourages the habit of appreciation by being a noticer.  Being a noticer of others immediately takes your focus off of yourself – because you are busy building the habit of praise through noticing the little things others are doing or have done.  Once you begin to notice other’s actions – speak to them words of affirmation.  God shows us this in Proverbs 15:23 

An appropriate answer brings joy to a person,

and a well-timed word is a good thing.

Obey your warm-hearted impulses

Creating the habit of giving on the impulse is hard for us because we are too busy and we literally leave little to no white space on our calendars for the Holy Spirit to prompt us to acts of kindness.  We’ve even resorted to blessing people in the drive thru by paying for the people’s food behind us in line.  I’m not knocking this act of kindness – I’m just saying we’re in the drive thru!! We’re actually in the drive thru of life with little time to act on impulse.  When I’m spending time in God’s Word and He prompts me to make zucchini bread for my neighbor – I must obey this warm-hearted impulse or the opportunity to bless will be lost.  Dunn states it this way . . . “You have to train yourself to obey given impulses on the instant – before they get a chance to cool.”

For when my impulses to obey the Holy Spirit cools my happiness is at stake.

The more I give myself away in obedience to the Holy Spirit the more God fills my life with JOY.  That is where the promise comes in play from the later part of Psalm 37:4

and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Preferring God to all the distractions of life will prompt my sensitivities to His calling of obedience in my every day moments.  Obeying those impulses will lead me to finding fulfillment in right desires of my heart.    

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